It's been difficult, rather strange, to see myself again at home in New York. I mean, it is my apartment, some of the furniture still here, but so many things have changed. It feels a little cold (and I'm not talking temperature wise) Something is missing. Maybe a routine, maybe some furniture that I feel mine. Even the new mattress as comfortable as it is, doesn't feel like mine yet. I don't remember feeling this in Berlin, but I'm sure it was probably something like that. Only now my girlfriend is not here.
We had a wonderful time together when she was here on vacation. It was good to see her, to share so much, and it is sad to miss her as much as I do.
Now I'm on my quest to find a job, to adapt to the city I called my home, to accept the changes and deal with everything around. The advantage from my window point of view, is that there are sunny days almost every day. Spring is coming and it is getting warmer.
I've been watching movies and getting updated to everything I missed. Even TV has changed! I don't have cable, so I'm limited to whatever is available on "free tv", and confirming that somehow, Cable TV has become a necessity!
I don't know yet what I want to do in the working force. I've been checking out things on the net, sent some resumes, even did some little jobs and got paid already. One of my friends wants to do a project so I'm doing research about that.
I feel a little empty. I wish I had something better to say. I wanted to get back into writing in this blog, but I'm not sure if I should continue. We'll see.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
Live from New York, is Friday morning!
It is 6 am, woke up a couple of hours ago. I'm still on European time. Yesterday was a "recovering day" from my trip. To say I was exhausted is not enough. I was extremely tired, a combination of all the physical activity that comes with packing, moving, throwing garbage, and of course flying accross the ocean, having jetlag, carrying 7 heavy suitcases, backpacks and duffelbags.
The emotional aspect of leaving and starting a long distance relationship is probably what weights more than anything. It was a wave of sadness contained by the pressure of time and the taxi waiting for me. We both tried focusing on something else, on the fact that we'll see each other sooner than we think, on the things that had to be done after I left, on cleaning and getting rid of things.
It was very sad to be there, in that apartment one last time, thinking of the first night we spent there. I remembered that even before I opened the door, I decided that I wouldn't move out until I left to go back to the US...
I'm going to see my girlfriend soon, I am really looking forward to see her and for us to share time here in New York. I'm looking forward to arrange things, to make my apartment my home again. I'm missing many things!
The first thing I made was a soup with the only little pot I brought with me, but I didn't have any plates to serve it or any spoon to eat it with! So I had soup on a plastic cup, with the spoon that came with the milk frother (my perfect milk frother that I also carried back!)
Today I will be looking at a car, one of those old cheap cars I found on craigslist.... it will be cheaper than renting a car when my girlfriend comes... and that way I can go and pick up the free stuff that people are offering around NY! I decided that I will not spend money if I can help it.
I already sent my resume to a couple of places, but haven't even unpacked! I opened 3 of the suitcases, looking for things I needed right away.
Things have to be better from the financial point of view, the main reason I had to leave Berlin. For the first time in 5 years I was happy to see the dollar so low: 1.53 for 1 Euro! At least I still have Euros that will become more dollars when I exchange them back.
I'm tired. I need to get back to sleep a little before I get out and do all the stuff that I want today.
Life is too short to be sad about the things we can't change, I know that... but it doesn't mean that I feel better being to far away from my love...
The emotional aspect of leaving and starting a long distance relationship is probably what weights more than anything. It was a wave of sadness contained by the pressure of time and the taxi waiting for me. We both tried focusing on something else, on the fact that we'll see each other sooner than we think, on the things that had to be done after I left, on cleaning and getting rid of things.
It was very sad to be there, in that apartment one last time, thinking of the first night we spent there. I remembered that even before I opened the door, I decided that I wouldn't move out until I left to go back to the US...
I'm going to see my girlfriend soon, I am really looking forward to see her and for us to share time here in New York. I'm looking forward to arrange things, to make my apartment my home again. I'm missing many things!
The first thing I made was a soup with the only little pot I brought with me, but I didn't have any plates to serve it or any spoon to eat it with! So I had soup on a plastic cup, with the spoon that came with the milk frother (my perfect milk frother that I also carried back!)
Today I will be looking at a car, one of those old cheap cars I found on craigslist.... it will be cheaper than renting a car when my girlfriend comes... and that way I can go and pick up the free stuff that people are offering around NY! I decided that I will not spend money if I can help it.
I already sent my resume to a couple of places, but haven't even unpacked! I opened 3 of the suitcases, looking for things I needed right away.
Things have to be better from the financial point of view, the main reason I had to leave Berlin. For the first time in 5 years I was happy to see the dollar so low: 1.53 for 1 Euro! At least I still have Euros that will become more dollars when I exchange them back.
I'm tired. I need to get back to sleep a little before I get out and do all the stuff that I want today.
Life is too short to be sad about the things we can't change, I know that... but it doesn't mean that I feel better being to far away from my love...
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Still chaos... but better.
Today is the last day that I will have internet here at home. Turns out that America on Line/Alice who are the providers of my internet, can't actually allow me to have it until the day I leave, because since my first day of my contract with them was the 29th, then my last day has to be the 29th... talk about not wanting to make some extra money, or not knowing how to charge per day. But like everything else here in Germany, it's just the way it is! I'm leaving on the 5th, but my phone will not be turned off until the 17th. And the Cable TV will still be available until the 31st of March. Customer service??? Fine thanks! The client is never right, and they are doing you a favor with their services, so they really don't care what you think.
This is something I will not miss!!!
I will miss the freedom and lack of censorship on TV! Here I've seen full frontal nudity so many times! Oh! and on those MTV shows where everybody is cursing all the time (Flavor of Love, I love New York...etc) well, there is no "beeps" so you can actually hear every single word they say. They don't dubb them, they put subtitles on them. That New York woman is pretty nasty with her language!
I will definitely miss biking around on lanes designed specially for bikes, the flatness of the city, the cafés and the shawarma. I'll miss these very rare sunny days when the city looks so nice. If it wasn't for the system and the weather, Berlin is the perfect city! It is small enough, hardly ever there is real traffic, is well maintained, the people are nice and friendly, there is a lot of culture going on, a lot of different places to go, and not really expensive to live here. Of course if you make your money in dollars, then it becomes impossible! Yesterday 1 Euro was 1.51 dollars....
My house is still in chaos, but I feel better... I'm still worried about my bed because I haven't found a buyer for it. But other things are getting on their way to be solved. Of course I hope that by tomorrow I'll have already pack my clothes and start cleaning up on the weekend. There are still boxes to fill up, things to throw and give away... I'm getting into all these, because is very hard to face my feelings. I know that it will not be easy to be without my girlfriend, the availability of seeing each other very often. I fear the long distance, but I guess I'll love the frequent flyer miles.
This is something I will not miss!!!
I will miss the freedom and lack of censorship on TV! Here I've seen full frontal nudity so many times! Oh! and on those MTV shows where everybody is cursing all the time (Flavor of Love, I love New York...etc) well, there is no "beeps" so you can actually hear every single word they say. They don't dubb them, they put subtitles on them. That New York woman is pretty nasty with her language!
I will definitely miss biking around on lanes designed specially for bikes, the flatness of the city, the cafés and the shawarma. I'll miss these very rare sunny days when the city looks so nice. If it wasn't for the system and the weather, Berlin is the perfect city! It is small enough, hardly ever there is real traffic, is well maintained, the people are nice and friendly, there is a lot of culture going on, a lot of different places to go, and not really expensive to live here. Of course if you make your money in dollars, then it becomes impossible! Yesterday 1 Euro was 1.51 dollars....
My house is still in chaos, but I feel better... I'm still worried about my bed because I haven't found a buyer for it. But other things are getting on their way to be solved. Of course I hope that by tomorrow I'll have already pack my clothes and start cleaning up on the weekend. There are still boxes to fill up, things to throw and give away... I'm getting into all these, because is very hard to face my feelings. I know that it will not be easy to be without my girlfriend, the availability of seeing each other very often. I fear the long distance, but I guess I'll love the frequent flyer miles.
Monday, February 18, 2008
What a nightmare!
I just woke up from a dream that I have to qualify as a nightmare! There were no monsters, or running, or dead people or some horrible thing. It was just the weirdest thing I've ever dreamt. I've been packing and doing things, and at the same time, I've been dealing with emotions that are shaky at times. I might be fine and all of a sudden feel depressed, or feel anxious. I get tired early at night and I'm getting up early in the morning. Basically I'm not living my regular life.
So, in my dream, I was already in New York, it was the next day after I arrived and I was on my way to a job interview in Manhattan. Only Manhattan looked more like downtown Caracas, with very narrow walkways and cars parked on the streets, and very narrow streets. Nothing like New York. There was almost no traffic or people (which is more a characteristic of Berlin, and not NY nor Caracas), and I was looking at the green light that I was approaching to cross. When I got to the corner, the light changed so I stopped. There was a woman dressed in a police uniform that was light with some green (the police in Berlin wears green!) and when the light turned green again, I noticed that to my left there was a line of people, and the woman told me: "Ma'm, you have to be on the line if you want to cross the street". That left me speechless! I was in shock! I was mad and disturbed at the same time. What had happened to New York? Then she told me something else that I don't remember, and I was out of myself! I told her I was going to the media to tell everybody! I said: I will go to Regis and tell him! (Now that was the weirdest thing! I don't like Regis Philbin at all!) I was screaming and furious with the woman!
And if that was little, I kept walking and found a Hot Dog Stand, and asked for a hotdog with everything. The guy asked me: what's everything? He didn't know I wanted onions and fries and mustard and ketchup and whatever they put in them (just like in Caracas). He just gave the bread and the wiener without anything and said it was five dollars! I woke up sweating!
That was too much to be a dream... too many mixed feelings and experiences that are having a ball with my weak subconsciousness!
Then I turned the TV on and watch on CNN the news. I hate what the media is doing with Obama... they are making him look like a rockstar, and to me he just can't sell what he says. I certainly hope people react and see things as they are. This guy has no experience in politics, is just the hype, and I'm pretty sure he will not do a good job. I hope democrats choose Hillary as the nominee.
So, in my dream, I was already in New York, it was the next day after I arrived and I was on my way to a job interview in Manhattan. Only Manhattan looked more like downtown Caracas, with very narrow walkways and cars parked on the streets, and very narrow streets. Nothing like New York. There was almost no traffic or people (which is more a characteristic of Berlin, and not NY nor Caracas), and I was looking at the green light that I was approaching to cross. When I got to the corner, the light changed so I stopped. There was a woman dressed in a police uniform that was light with some green (the police in Berlin wears green!) and when the light turned green again, I noticed that to my left there was a line of people, and the woman told me: "Ma'm, you have to be on the line if you want to cross the street". That left me speechless! I was in shock! I was mad and disturbed at the same time. What had happened to New York? Then she told me something else that I don't remember, and I was out of myself! I told her I was going to the media to tell everybody! I said: I will go to Regis and tell him! (Now that was the weirdest thing! I don't like Regis Philbin at all!) I was screaming and furious with the woman!
And if that was little, I kept walking and found a Hot Dog Stand, and asked for a hotdog with everything. The guy asked me: what's everything? He didn't know I wanted onions and fries and mustard and ketchup and whatever they put in them (just like in Caracas). He just gave the bread and the wiener without anything and said it was five dollars! I woke up sweating!
That was too much to be a dream... too many mixed feelings and experiences that are having a ball with my weak subconsciousness!
Then I turned the TV on and watch on CNN the news. I hate what the media is doing with Obama... they are making him look like a rockstar, and to me he just can't sell what he says. I certainly hope people react and see things as they are. This guy has no experience in politics, is just the hype, and I'm pretty sure he will not do a good job. I hope democrats choose Hillary as the nominee.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Frequent Flyer
I think that the frequent flyer programs should not be limited to just the airline or group of airlines that one uses. There should be a program where all the miles YOU did, was what counted, as a general thing for ALL the airlines! I came back from New York, which was in itself a crazy trip, and 2 days later went to Spain. Just got back few hours ago. I see the mess in my house, and all the things I have to do, and I feel like this is way too fast!
I wish there was a better way to do things. But there isn't. Little by little I'll deal with everything I have to do. Right now, I'm going out to have dinner with my Girlfriend... we never celebrate Valentine's Day, but we might as well start tonight.
I need the help of a genie so I can do everything I need to do in the very short time I have to do it. I'm leaving on the 5th of March to New York. If you have Aladdin's number, please post it! Thank you.
I wish there was a better way to do things. But there isn't. Little by little I'll deal with everything I have to do. Right now, I'm going out to have dinner with my Girlfriend... we never celebrate Valentine's Day, but we might as well start tonight.
I need the help of a genie so I can do everything I need to do in the very short time I have to do it. I'm leaving on the 5th of March to New York. If you have Aladdin's number, please post it! Thank you.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
This weekend... New York City!
OK, you are probably thinking that this is way too fast! And yes, it is. I am going to NY this weekend, because there is a combination of things: I have this month to move, I can take as many things as possible with me, I got a pretty good deal for the weekend, and that way I can receive my apartment and set up things for when I move back, probably by the end of the month. Is not easy, but this is what I gotta do.
So here in Germany, I already sent the letter of "resignation" of contract with my cable TV company, which will end my service promptly the 31st of March. Yes, they need 3 months in advance to cut the service! Fortunately they counted January as one of the months. I have to do the same with my phone company, but only 3 weeks before ending the contract, more or less the same as it was to start the service. And apparently only the electricity can be billed up to the last minute and then they'll send the bill to someone in Germany, because they can't send it to NY.
On the other hand, tonight after I booked my flight, I signed up for Vonage, and it is already working, my new phone number is able to receive messages. I also requested internet service through cable TV, which I only have to pick up the self installation kit when I get there. So yes, that made my happy. I do miss that kind of service, the way things work right away!
The only bad thing is that I return on Monday, and only my friends who support Obama are happy that I will not be able to vote for Hillary. But I certainly hope that New York gives the victory to Hillary! I actually looked to see if I could return on tuesday after voting, but the difference in price was 300 dollars, and that will not be counted as a tax deduction contribution to the Democrat's campaign! LOL! So, Hillary, sorry I can't vote for you on the Primaries.
This is weird... I am sad to leave Berlin, but happy to go to NY. Hopefully I'll be a very frequent traveler after I get the job of my dreams, a job that will pay me enough to come visit my girlfriend at least once a month. Who knows? Maybe my destiny is to go to NY because I'm going to win the Lotto Jackpot! I can't sleep and keep dreaming awake!
Good Night!
So here in Germany, I already sent the letter of "resignation" of contract with my cable TV company, which will end my service promptly the 31st of March. Yes, they need 3 months in advance to cut the service! Fortunately they counted January as one of the months. I have to do the same with my phone company, but only 3 weeks before ending the contract, more or less the same as it was to start the service. And apparently only the electricity can be billed up to the last minute and then they'll send the bill to someone in Germany, because they can't send it to NY.
On the other hand, tonight after I booked my flight, I signed up for Vonage, and it is already working, my new phone number is able to receive messages. I also requested internet service through cable TV, which I only have to pick up the self installation kit when I get there. So yes, that made my happy. I do miss that kind of service, the way things work right away!
The only bad thing is that I return on Monday, and only my friends who support Obama are happy that I will not be able to vote for Hillary. But I certainly hope that New York gives the victory to Hillary! I actually looked to see if I could return on tuesday after voting, but the difference in price was 300 dollars, and that will not be counted as a tax deduction contribution to the Democrat's campaign! LOL! So, Hillary, sorry I can't vote for you on the Primaries.
This is weird... I am sad to leave Berlin, but happy to go to NY. Hopefully I'll be a very frequent traveler after I get the job of my dreams, a job that will pay me enough to come visit my girlfriend at least once a month. Who knows? Maybe my destiny is to go to NY because I'm going to win the Lotto Jackpot! I can't sleep and keep dreaming awake!
Good Night!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Life keeps changing!
A couple of months ago, I was writing about the possibility of returning to the States due to financial problems. Well, it will happen sooner than I had plan, and it will not be Pittsburgh after all!
I was with the idea of Pittsburgh because I had rented my apartment in NYC, so it would've been easier to be in Pittsburgh and then when my tenant decided to leave, I would decide then. Well, she notified me she was laid off and has to move by the end of this month.
So, all of a sudden, my apartment is available again, the Euro is almost 1.50 dollars, and I have to make a decision. Well, to me it is a sign that I need to go back to NY. I don't know exactly what will happen, I don't know what kind of job I can get, but I want to think that it is what I am supposed to do. Otherwise, how can I explain all these?
Of course emotionally this is driving me crazy! I'm sad, I don't want to have a long distance relationship, but maybe it is possible to do. I found that now Air Berlin has direct flights to JFK, and they start as low as 106 Euros one way! So, perhaps I'll accumulate enough miles, and so will my girlfriend. It will be all a matter of adjusting to a new situation.
I found already that Vonage has a plan where many international calls are covered and are free within that price.
And (the best thing so far) I saved 170 Euros that I would've paid to have my computer repaired! I need to change the Optical drive and the same drive is $99 in the US...
So, I'm looking forward to go back to a system where the client is always right, where everything can be obtained right away, where the stores are open later than 8 pm, and on Sundays too, where you don't need to notify companies 3 months in advance to get things done, and where the chinese food taste the way it supposed to!
So, if anybody that reads this blog, has any suggestions on phone savings besides Vonage, or any other suggestions, please write me.
I'm thinking I will get internet conection with Cable, have Vonage as phone, and not get cable TV but instead get Netflix, and have a movie to watch every night. That will be cheaper than having Cable TV, don't you think? The shows I love I can read the recaps on AfterEllen.com, or have marathon watching at a friend's house, because she saves everything on her DVR!
Oh! and if you own or have contacts with an international moving company, please contact me. My email is in the disclaimer at the end of this page.
I was with the idea of Pittsburgh because I had rented my apartment in NYC, so it would've been easier to be in Pittsburgh and then when my tenant decided to leave, I would decide then. Well, she notified me she was laid off and has to move by the end of this month.
So, all of a sudden, my apartment is available again, the Euro is almost 1.50 dollars, and I have to make a decision. Well, to me it is a sign that I need to go back to NY. I don't know exactly what will happen, I don't know what kind of job I can get, but I want to think that it is what I am supposed to do. Otherwise, how can I explain all these?
Of course emotionally this is driving me crazy! I'm sad, I don't want to have a long distance relationship, but maybe it is possible to do. I found that now Air Berlin has direct flights to JFK, and they start as low as 106 Euros one way! So, perhaps I'll accumulate enough miles, and so will my girlfriend. It will be all a matter of adjusting to a new situation.
I found already that Vonage has a plan where many international calls are covered and are free within that price.
And (the best thing so far) I saved 170 Euros that I would've paid to have my computer repaired! I need to change the Optical drive and the same drive is $99 in the US...
So, I'm looking forward to go back to a system where the client is always right, where everything can be obtained right away, where the stores are open later than 8 pm, and on Sundays too, where you don't need to notify companies 3 months in advance to get things done, and where the chinese food taste the way it supposed to!
So, if anybody that reads this blog, has any suggestions on phone savings besides Vonage, or any other suggestions, please write me.
I'm thinking I will get internet conection with Cable, have Vonage as phone, and not get cable TV but instead get Netflix, and have a movie to watch every night. That will be cheaper than having Cable TV, don't you think? The shows I love I can read the recaps on AfterEllen.com, or have marathon watching at a friend's house, because she saves everything on her DVR!
Oh! and if you own or have contacts with an international moving company, please contact me. My email is in the disclaimer at the end of this page.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Right across the street
From my window I can see them. They are my friendly gay couple that doesn't watch TV too often, have candle light dinners with friends and now have this person visiting their place... I don't know them. I know they are gay because in the summer they have a rainbow flag on the balcony. They are two middle age guys that sit out and read, decorate their balcony and are rather social. I don't think I could recognize them if I see them on the street. I guess they don't have a pet, and they work long hours. They are almost never home during the day. I see them through my window, but I haven't seen them looking at me. I am of course the curious neighbor!
This is the building where they live. Every place a different story! I have binoculars... I've seen many interesting things, sometimes more interesting than others. I saw a whole pregnancy, a couple of move out and move in, and now I have a camera! Sometimes I shock myself! Of course I'm very self conscious about my neighbors, but so far, only the kid on top points this way with his laser pointer. I want to get one of those bright lights and point it at him when he looks this way. He is probably 8 or 10. His brother is a big football fan. Every time there's a game he waves his huge flag out the window. Their mother is very much into doing laundry. Oh well, regular life, like everywhere else.
And here are a couple of pictures I took tonight.
I'm off to Spain tomorrow, so I don't know if I'll be able to post from there. Perhaps is possible, but not sure. In any case, have a wonderful time,and happy holidays or whatever it is that you do during this time of the year. I'll be waiting for Santa with my nephews! Hasta la vista, baby!
Thursday, December 13, 2007
No more GF!
Don't worry, I'm OK with my girlfriend! But from now on, my GF will be known only as "girlfriend". Turns out that she likes to lurk around my blog, and didn't like me using the short version. Her reason: "Sounds military!"
I totally blame this to my American influence, where everything tends to be short and "easier". I remember for example the first time I heard A.S.A.P. It was a little weird but I understood right away the urgency of spelling it instead of saying "as soon as possible".
Then when I started to work, I found so many initials when referring to the things and the people we worked with, that it took me a while to get into the "lingo".
Of course with the use of computers and chat, the amount of "short" phrases are... too many to remember, but the ones I used more are: LOL and brb. The rest, I write them out. After all is not an SMS.
For my girlfriend, chatting is an impossible activity. She gets stressed out because she has to type fast, and she needs to think of the answer she wants to write. She actually told me that many times when we were chatting across continents, she would write by hand first and then type what she wrote on paper. Now we don't chat anymore, but she is a computer savvy who lurks around and makes observations about those little details. So, my dear girlfriend, you got it!
I totally blame this to my American influence, where everything tends to be short and "easier". I remember for example the first time I heard A.S.A.P. It was a little weird but I understood right away the urgency of spelling it instead of saying "as soon as possible".
Then when I started to work, I found so many initials when referring to the things and the people we worked with, that it took me a while to get into the "lingo".
Of course with the use of computers and chat, the amount of "short" phrases are... too many to remember, but the ones I used more are: LOL and brb. The rest, I write them out. After all is not an SMS.
For my girlfriend, chatting is an impossible activity. She gets stressed out because she has to type fast, and she needs to think of the answer she wants to write. She actually told me that many times when we were chatting across continents, she would write by hand first and then type what she wrote on paper. Now we don't chat anymore, but she is a computer savvy who lurks around and makes observations about those little details. So, my dear girlfriend, you got it!
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Christmas time
Today I finally went around with the bike to take pictures of some Christmas lights. But before I went to the Kudam, I stopped by the store to buy something to dye my hair. So, since Christmas is so close and all, I decided to dye my hair red, yes, flaming red! The kind of red that Santa Claus wears! Crazy? maybe! but it is not the first time or the worst thing I've done, so I'm OK with that. (I wanted to dye my hair green, but my GF gave me a really negative answer to that, threatening with not seeing me while green head! ) So, red it is!
The first step is to bleach my hair which is naturally dark brown, and the red can actually be more bright. I just finished bleaching, and since it is the first time I've done it in a very long time, now my hair is the color of straw... that yellowish/white with some orange kind of straw. Tomorrow I'll go to get a haircut and there I'll dye my hair red.
Funny thing, is that when the color wears out, then my hair becomes rather pink.
And here are some pictures from the Christmas decorations around Kudam, which is a very popular shopping area for visitors and locals alike. Not exactly a cheap area to go shopping. It would be more or less like Fifth Ave. in New York City. They have this little Christmas market that I plan to visit in the following days. Then I'll post more pictures.
Monday, December 3, 2007
Rain
The worst thing about having rain for the last 5 days, is that they give me the perfect excuse to procrastinate! I am already an expert on leaving things to do for later, in another day, at another time. I got also sick with a bad cold, and the increase on the "lazy" factor was so high, that I woder how am I going to deal with everything I actually have to do!
I spent most of the time reading, doing research, watching TV, and basically drinking my cold away with juices and teas. My house is such a mess! But, instead of cleaning, here I am, updating my blog with probably the least creative posting ever!
I am too lazy to even fix it. And it is a testimony for myself. To my invisible friends that read this page, I am sorry. I wanted to write and post pictures about the Christmas lightings in Berlin, but I haven't been out and have no new pictures... maybe next time.
I spent most of the time reading, doing research, watching TV, and basically drinking my cold away with juices and teas. My house is such a mess! But, instead of cleaning, here I am, updating my blog with probably the least creative posting ever!
I am too lazy to even fix it. And it is a testimony for myself. To my invisible friends that read this page, I am sorry. I wanted to write and post pictures about the Christmas lightings in Berlin, but I haven't been out and have no new pictures... maybe next time.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Moonlight
The light was so bright, I thought it was a lamp outside my window. The problem is that there are no lamps on the fifth floor. As amazing as it is not being full moon yet, I couldn't resist and took some pictures. Technically I used low speed on the camera. Tried different things except using the tripod. So, here are some of the pix I took.
Digital cameras with all the possibilities of manual analog cameras are so much fun! I have it with me all the time, with extra rechargeable AA batteries and I use it almost everywhere. If you are curious, it is a Kodak Z1275.
And if you are into experimenting with light, speed and ISO, this little camera is the perfect one. Another addiction: I am now addicted to my digital camera! How pathetic am I?? (Just hope that my old beautiful analog camera doesn't find out. I feel unfaithful to her after all these years... Oh well!)
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Life, only quieter
"Sometimes a good fantasy is better than a sad reality"
To escape into the world of fantasies, or daydreaming, has become one of my favorite activities lately. Life is good, but things have changed. Most of the friends I know here in Berlin don't live here anymore. So, they too like many others, have become long distance friends. Fortunately they are not distant.
And then, I see that for every Euro I have to pay 1.48 US dollars... that totally makes me sad! I have to get back to the States, because I can't afford living here at this rate.
The consequences are of course having a long distance relationship with my girlfriend, and it is something that I don't even want to think about! Now I am doing the research again, on where to go when I go back. So far and at the top of my list is Pittsburgh. Very affordable to live with roommates, fairly close to New York, and a lot of cultural activity, at least on paper.
Of course everything could be different! Something might happen that would change my destiny, that would avoid the move back, something that would open up a different window for me.
In the meantime I keep reading and sometimes writing.
To escape into the world of fantasies, or daydreaming, has become one of my favorite activities lately. Life is good, but things have changed. Most of the friends I know here in Berlin don't live here anymore. So, they too like many others, have become long distance friends. Fortunately they are not distant.
And then, I see that for every Euro I have to pay 1.48 US dollars... that totally makes me sad! I have to get back to the States, because I can't afford living here at this rate.
The consequences are of course having a long distance relationship with my girlfriend, and it is something that I don't even want to think about! Now I am doing the research again, on where to go when I go back. So far and at the top of my list is Pittsburgh. Very affordable to live with roommates, fairly close to New York, and a lot of cultural activity, at least on paper.
Of course everything could be different! Something might happen that would change my destiny, that would avoid the move back, something that would open up a different window for me.
In the meantime I keep reading and sometimes writing.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
My Birthday!
At my age, which I am not going to disclose at such a public place, birthdays come by so fast, that I can hardly take them into account! Some times I even have to think hard of the year I was born, and then remember my real age! LOL!
As we've been doing for the last 4 years, I went out for dinner with my GF. We had a great time at an Argentinian restaurant where the steak is superb! This time was rather quiet, just the two of us, very intimate and fun!
As a gift I got a book published in French, with photos of women that are just getting out of bed.
And I also got a very cozy blanquet, perfect to use in winter while watching TV on the sofa.
I was thinking about how my life has change with my GF in it! She helps me see everything under a different perspective, savoring every moment, enjoying each other's company and having a blast with the simplest things. I can't imagine my life without her! It is so great to be in love! Today I feel very fortunate to have her with me.
Monday, November 12, 2007
First Snow
I live on the top flor of the building. Not exactly the luxury Pent House that some people might think. Rather, the very small apartment in between two bigger units. Saturday afternoon, there we were in bed, watching a movie. The light from the sun was showing through the curtains, looked like a nice beautiful day. Then, when the movie was ending, all of a sudden I see that the sun disappeared. Perhaps 20 minutes later, we open the curtain and we see it is snowing!
I grew up in a place where snow was a thing of the very high mountains in The Andes. The rest of the country, pretty much 28 Celsius all year 'round. So, even though I've lived the last 18 years in places where winter is really a change in the weather, I still get all happy to see the first snow of the season. I enjoy to touch it, feel the cold and even open my mouth when the snow hits my face. Yes, I do feel like a kid when its snowing. I was hoping I could do some snowballs to throw, but unfortunately it was more ice than snow. It looked good though... But in matter of minutes it was all gone. Berlin has a thing with rain. The snow is something we don't see accumulating very often. The temperatures are not low enough most of the time, so me mostly get rain.
The most incredible thing was that, while it was still snowing on one side, the other side was showing a clear sky above the clouds... really a very nice view.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Hello, my name is Sally and I'm an addict
I know I am weak! I have an addictive personality. I can get addicted to so many things at the same time. So, today I decided to admit publicly that yes, I am addicted to the following things:
Coke, Trendy Lemon, Sushi, Grey's Anatomy transcripts (I only have the second season on DVD so I read the rest of them online here), Desperate Housewives transcripts, AfterEllen.com, Scribegrrrl recaps of Bad Girls on Afterellen.com, And also the recaps of the terrible shows that they put in there.
I am addicted to a bunch of blogs, they are all in my Blogrol. I read the Obituaries every day. I play pogo.com everytime I'm on the phone. I talk on the phone for hours. I like to watch "Wissen" on German TV (documentary about how things are made). I've seen these series over and over: The Sopranos, Sex and the City, Queer as Folk, The L Word.
I am getting addicted to Weeds (The TV series, not marihuana).
I'm addicted to taking hot baths, drinking hot chocolate, eating Tamarindo, playing the slots machines at casinos, going out on the bike, taking pictures with my new camera, reading Mafalda, reading old postcards from my girlfriend.
I am addicted to the smell of my girlfriend's pillow, conversations until very late at night, apple with cheese, powder milk, and talking with my nephews. There is no particular order in my addicitions. And the picture, is from my favorite Sushi restaurant here in Berlin. When my friends came to visit, that's what we order for us 4. No, I didn't eat the whole thing by myself!
Coke, Trendy Lemon, Sushi, Grey's Anatomy transcripts (I only have the second season on DVD so I read the rest of them online here), Desperate Housewives transcripts, AfterEllen.com, Scribegrrrl recaps of Bad Girls on Afterellen.com, And also the recaps of the terrible shows that they put in there.
I am addicted to a bunch of blogs, they are all in my Blogrol. I read the Obituaries every day. I play pogo.com everytime I'm on the phone. I talk on the phone for hours. I like to watch "Wissen" on German TV (documentary about how things are made). I've seen these series over and over: The Sopranos, Sex and the City, Queer as Folk, The L Word.
I am getting addicted to Weeds (The TV series, not marihuana).
I'm addicted to taking hot baths, drinking hot chocolate, eating Tamarindo, playing the slots machines at casinos, going out on the bike, taking pictures with my new camera, reading Mafalda, reading old postcards from my girlfriend.
I am addicted to the smell of my girlfriend's pillow, conversations until very late at night, apple with cheese, powder milk, and talking with my nephews. There is no particular order in my addicitions. And the picture, is from my favorite Sushi restaurant here in Berlin. When my friends came to visit, that's what we order for us 4. No, I didn't eat the whole thing by myself!
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Halloween Business
It was Halloween and I am amazed how much the kids in this building are into it! When I came to Berlin for the first time, Halloween was nowhere to be seen. Nobody really cared about it, and that was not even something to consider for a celebration... I think only one gay bar had a Halloween Party, and it was not about dressing up. But now, it has developed into a little party that is growing every year. They sell candy, but not the US Halloween candy... just regular Haribo candy. Kids are dressing up, and most annoying of all, ringing my bell because they think I have candy for them! I am an American but sorry, I don't have candy. And much less when the dollar is so low against the Euro!
Monday, October 29, 2007
"I never met a lesbian before"
I had two friends visiting Berlin for few days and they stayed with me. We had a great time, even though my body is so tired of all the activities that typical tourists do: we went everywhere! On top of that, the last two days we did some touring with the bicycles, so they experienced how's Berlin on a bike. I know Carol for at least 26 years. I met Jane recently at Carol's house. They are both straight, with partners, but very independent women. They know what they want and go for it. Talking with Jane, she said that she never met a lesbian before. I told her that I was sure she knew them, but didn't know they were lesbians. They both live in Venezuela, a country where being gay is something that it's still taboo, and it is even more for women. The lesbians there would hardly come out of the closet, and are experts at hiding it. Jane even assumed that just going to a gay/lesbian bar would automatically mean that they have come out of the closet. Can you imagine??
I was there, and I know that many people that go to bars are still very much in the closet! They have this undergrownd network where everyone is very aware and like to keep things secretly.
As for the last activity before they went back home, we went to a lesbian bar. At the door, they were a little scared, thinking that women would start touching them or telling them things. But then they realized that it was just people that went there dancing, have a drink or two and have a good time above all. I guess they learned a bit more about how it is the life of a lesbian. They met my girlfriend, we talked about many things, and I know they had a good time here.
I think it is important to come out just because of visibility. When people that know you for the longest time, suddenly know that you are a homosexual, very seldom would reject you. I had a friend who after I came out she stopped talking to me altogether. Another friend, said that she would ignore that aspect of my life but would treat me the same. Of course for me that was the end of the friendship we had. But my real friends have been very supportive, they accepted me and my girlfriend, and they know that what is important is that I'm happy, and I am still the same person.
I was there, and I know that many people that go to bars are still very much in the closet! They have this undergrownd network where everyone is very aware and like to keep things secretly.
As for the last activity before they went back home, we went to a lesbian bar. At the door, they were a little scared, thinking that women would start touching them or telling them things. But then they realized that it was just people that went there dancing, have a drink or two and have a good time above all. I guess they learned a bit more about how it is the life of a lesbian. They met my girlfriend, we talked about many things, and I know they had a good time here.
I think it is important to come out just because of visibility. When people that know you for the longest time, suddenly know that you are a homosexual, very seldom would reject you. I had a friend who after I came out she stopped talking to me altogether. Another friend, said that she would ignore that aspect of my life but would treat me the same. Of course for me that was the end of the friendship we had. But my real friends have been very supportive, they accepted me and my girlfriend, and they know that what is important is that I'm happy, and I am still the same person.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I got this on an e-mail!
QUESTIONS THAT HAUNT ME
Can you cry under water?
How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
What disease did cured ham actually have?
How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?
If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?
Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.
Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?
Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?
Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane ?
If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?
If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
Why did you just try singing the two songs above?
Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?
Can you cry under water?
How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
What disease did cured ham actually have?
How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?
If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?
Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.
Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?
Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?
Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane ?
If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?
If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
Why did you just try singing the two songs above?
Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Out with the bike...
Today I took advantage of a wonderful day and went out with the bike. I wanted to check out the Open Air Exhibit of Botero in Berlin. Interesting and very crowded. It was a little cold, but there were no clouds in the sky and it was so nice. My depression is still there, like in the back burner, but I'm getting over it little by little.
Here are some pictures I took today with my new camera. By the way, my camera is a Kodak Easyshare Z1275. It is great! And yes, I can take panoramic pictures with it. I'm still experimenting and trying things every day, but so far I must say it was a pretty good investment. Most of the pictures are from very typical Berlin sites.
The Brandenburg Gate.

The Siegessäule

Berlin's Cathedral

Checkpoint Charlie. This was the entrance control for the American sector when Berlin was divided by the wall.


The Television Tower
Here are some pictures I took today with my new camera. By the way, my camera is a Kodak Easyshare Z1275. It is great! And yes, I can take panoramic pictures with it. I'm still experimenting and trying things every day, but so far I must say it was a pretty good investment. Most of the pictures are from very typical Berlin sites.
The Brandenburg Gate.
The Siegessäule
Berlin's Cathedral
Checkpoint Charlie. This was the entrance control for the American sector when Berlin was divided by the wall.
The Television Tower